Hi all!
Sorry I’ve been absent for SO STINKIN’ LONG!
I wanted to get through this last headache before I made this into a regular thing…something about staring into a bright screen hurting my head…whaaa??
Ok, but first can I please start with this song by Kari Jobe? I was getting ready one day and it came on my iTunes and I just started crying. Here’s the chorus:
I believe You’re my healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe
And I believe You’re my portion
I believe You’re more than enough for me
Jesus You’re all I need
Here’s the video for the whole song, you should listen. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvIEJ_PmqJ8&feature=related
*sorry, I couldn't figure out how to post the video itself. And I just have no patience right now. Sorry!
And let me tell you, when you’re in the amount of pain I’m in (keeping in mind it’s nicknamed the suicide headache…yep. Not scary at all…) there is absolutely NOTHING I can do. Zip, zilch, zero. So I pray. And I lean and trust on God to pull me through and give me the strength to wait it out and let it pass.
God is my healer, and I am now healed. :)
Well, for the time being. There’s a great chance it’ll come back since it’s come back for the last 2 years, but who knows!
In other great news, next week is finals!...no? Not great? Well, I think it’s great because that means that summer is coming, and I only have 2 more class sessions, 3 concerts to go to, 6 finals, 1 graduation to attend, and 1 drive home!
As I write it out it seems a tad more daunting than before, but whatever.
So what am I doing for summer you may be asking? (I know you all were!)
Well, I got my church music internship approved!!!! I am officially the Cedar Grove worship intern!! And it’s legit. It is official-official. Just ask Tom. :)
I’m also leaving for Spirit West Coast in 92 days. Not that I’m counting down. Maybe it was just a fantastic guess…
AND, drum roll please……
My brother is getting married in August!!!!!!! And yes, I am singing in the wedding. Hopefully without crying. (Psh, like that will happen.)
That’s it friends, I’m trying to think of some witty remark to end this, but I’m really not coming up with anything. So I thought I would just be honest, and then end it.
The end.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Headache Update
Hey peeps,
I wanted to write something to explain what’s been going on with my headaches.
Let me pause and say that I am going to be 100% honest and open about this so…uh…watch out! Hahaha
Let me recap really quick:
I woke up Monday morning (almost 3 weeks ago) with a headache
**note** My headaches are seriously painful. I can’t begin to explain to you (although here I’m trying to, right?) but I wake up in the morning (feelin’ like P. Diddy…sorry. I couldn’t help myself!) and along with feeling severely sick to my stomach, I feel like I have an ice pick driving through my left temple and out my eye. It gets so bad that it makes me want to cry, BUT crying always makes it even worse, so it’s just pointless. Although there’s always one point where I just break down and cry anyway. This time it was in chapel. Chapel was SO LOUD that I couldn’t stand, and I leaned on my friend’s shoulder and she covered my ears and hugged me while I literally sobbed into her shoulder.
Moral of the story: These headaches are the WORST things EVER.
So when I wake up with this headache, I make an appointment with the health center ASAP and I go in the next day. I made an appointment with my usual doctor but once I get there I get paired up with a new doctor, which was actually a blessing. She gave a new perspective on the headache, gave me a few new prescriptions, and told me to come back in a few days and to make an appointment with Dr. Emerson, the head doctor of the health center.
Well, a few days later I make the appointment and since the headache has not gotten any better, he prescribes me Vicodin.
The weekend goes by, and there’s no real improvement, so I go BACK to Dr. Emerson. He decides to prescribe me something stronger and when that doesn’t work I go back and after a little bit of talking he decides to refer me to a neurologist.
He told me that he thinks what I have is called “cluster headaches”.
Cluster Headache: A type of severe headache that tends to recur over a period of several weeks and in which the pain is usually limited to one side of the head.
Also commonly known as the most painful type of headaches.
I looked it up (which was dumb) and mothers who have had these headaches (which are un-curable by the way) and they say that the headaches are WORSE THAN GIVING BIRTH.
I know that everyone has different pain tolerances and different levels of labor pain and everything but still!! Gah!!!
So I made an appointment with the neurologist for Friday (yesterday).
For the sake of being honest, I was in full-fledged panic mode from that point till my appointment. I know if something was seriously wrong there would be some kind of permanent damage, but at this point, any kind of logical thinking was just not going to happen.
After what felt like months, I made it to my appointment, and after telling the doctor about my past headaches and symptoms, he agreed that I really do have cluster headaches.
I have another appointment with him in a week to talk about things that might be causing the headaches and ways to prevent them next time. He told me that he doesn’t know what this might look like, but he’d take time to look over some things and hopefully have some ideas.
So, that’s pretty much it. I’m in massive amounts of pain with a smile on my face, because really, what else am I going to do?
Prayers are completely appreciated, and I will make sure to write again after my next appointment (a week from this Monday).
Oh, last story. It’s good, I promise! :)
The day I was told to make an appointment with the neurologist I went to my last class early to make up a test, but it was empty. So I sat down and waited (trying not to freak out again) and I look up at the white board and it said this:
“God is our strength and refuge. A present help in times of trouble.”
Psalms 46.1
:)
I wanted to write something to explain what’s been going on with my headaches.
Let me pause and say that I am going to be 100% honest and open about this so…uh…watch out! Hahaha
Let me recap really quick:
I woke up Monday morning (almost 3 weeks ago) with a headache
**note** My headaches are seriously painful. I can’t begin to explain to you (although here I’m trying to, right?) but I wake up in the morning (feelin’ like P. Diddy…sorry. I couldn’t help myself!) and along with feeling severely sick to my stomach, I feel like I have an ice pick driving through my left temple and out my eye. It gets so bad that it makes me want to cry, BUT crying always makes it even worse, so it’s just pointless. Although there’s always one point where I just break down and cry anyway. This time it was in chapel. Chapel was SO LOUD that I couldn’t stand, and I leaned on my friend’s shoulder and she covered my ears and hugged me while I literally sobbed into her shoulder.
Moral of the story: These headaches are the WORST things EVER.
So when I wake up with this headache, I make an appointment with the health center ASAP and I go in the next day. I made an appointment with my usual doctor but once I get there I get paired up with a new doctor, which was actually a blessing. She gave a new perspective on the headache, gave me a few new prescriptions, and told me to come back in a few days and to make an appointment with Dr. Emerson, the head doctor of the health center.
Well, a few days later I make the appointment and since the headache has not gotten any better, he prescribes me Vicodin.
The weekend goes by, and there’s no real improvement, so I go BACK to Dr. Emerson. He decides to prescribe me something stronger and when that doesn’t work I go back and after a little bit of talking he decides to refer me to a neurologist.
He told me that he thinks what I have is called “cluster headaches”.
Cluster Headache: A type of severe headache that tends to recur over a period of several weeks and in which the pain is usually limited to one side of the head.
Also commonly known as the most painful type of headaches.
I looked it up (which was dumb) and mothers who have had these headaches (which are un-curable by the way) and they say that the headaches are WORSE THAN GIVING BIRTH.
I know that everyone has different pain tolerances and different levels of labor pain and everything but still!! Gah!!!
So I made an appointment with the neurologist for Friday (yesterday).
For the sake of being honest, I was in full-fledged panic mode from that point till my appointment. I know if something was seriously wrong there would be some kind of permanent damage, but at this point, any kind of logical thinking was just not going to happen.
After what felt like months, I made it to my appointment, and after telling the doctor about my past headaches and symptoms, he agreed that I really do have cluster headaches.
I have another appointment with him in a week to talk about things that might be causing the headaches and ways to prevent them next time. He told me that he doesn’t know what this might look like, but he’d take time to look over some things and hopefully have some ideas.
So, that’s pretty much it. I’m in massive amounts of pain with a smile on my face, because really, what else am I going to do?
Prayers are completely appreciated, and I will make sure to write again after my next appointment (a week from this Monday).
Oh, last story. It’s good, I promise! :)
The day I was told to make an appointment with the neurologist I went to my last class early to make up a test, but it was empty. So I sat down and waited (trying not to freak out again) and I look up at the white board and it said this:
“God is our strength and refuge. A present help in times of trouble.”
Psalms 46.1
:)
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Day Eleven
Day Eleven: A photo of your favorite movie
....this one was hard BUT I decided to pick just ONE!
Aren't you guys soooo proud?? :)
Here it is folks!
So if you know me...at all, you really won't be surprised. This was (still is obviously) my favorite Disney princess movie. I still love these kind of movies, but that's just the girlie-girl inside of me!
Side Note: My roommate can attest to my love of this movie: 22nd birthday: wake up, put on Sleeping Beauty crown, grab breakfast, watch "Sleeping Beauty".
You're all jealous, I know.
:)
So there it is. It's my favorite. It's heart warming, suspenseful, there's a princess and a prince, they fall in love just by dancing in the forest, they sing together, she's put under an evil spell, he's captured, breaks out, kills a dragon (a dragon who has summoned "all the powers of hell!" thank you very much!!), and kisses her, and they live happily ever after.
It's just my favorite! :)
While I'm here, let me announce I AM GRADUATING IN MAY OF 2012! I have worked out the classes, and between taking a few classes over the summer and whatnot, I have it all ready!
Let me tell you, it was getting close AND I have been somewhat freaking out (!!!) for the last week or two.
But now Alicia is happy.
Alicia is also happy that her prescription is working!
I can't remember if I mentioned but I was diagnosed with "cluster headaches" possibly the worst kind of headache (awesome, right? How lucky am I??), and was then given a more 'fitting' prescription, and it seems to be working.
I'm going to the health center tomorrow for a follow up appointment, and I should be getting a prescription to take everyday to prevent me from getting these lovely headaches ever again!
Can I get an amen??
Alrighty friends. Now that you're all caught up, I am going to go study me some music education, church history, 1 & 2 Samuel, math, some songs memorized, then it's off to bed for me!
Or possibly more procrastination.
And let's get real, there's definitely going to be SOME procrastination.
Sorry Mom.
....this one was hard BUT I decided to pick just ONE!
Aren't you guys soooo proud?? :)
Here it is folks!
So if you know me...at all, you really won't be surprised. This was (still is obviously) my favorite Disney princess movie. I still love these kind of movies, but that's just the girlie-girl inside of me!
Side Note: My roommate can attest to my love of this movie: 22nd birthday: wake up, put on Sleeping Beauty crown, grab breakfast, watch "Sleeping Beauty".
You're all jealous, I know.
:)
So there it is. It's my favorite. It's heart warming, suspenseful, there's a princess and a prince, they fall in love just by dancing in the forest, they sing together, she's put under an evil spell, he's captured, breaks out, kills a dragon (a dragon who has summoned "all the powers of hell!" thank you very much!!), and kisses her, and they live happily ever after.
It's just my favorite! :)
While I'm here, let me announce I AM GRADUATING IN MAY OF 2012! I have worked out the classes, and between taking a few classes over the summer and whatnot, I have it all ready!
Let me tell you, it was getting close AND I have been somewhat freaking out (!!!) for the last week or two.
But now Alicia is happy.
Alicia is also happy that her prescription is working!
I can't remember if I mentioned but I was diagnosed with "cluster headaches" possibly the worst kind of headache (awesome, right? How lucky am I??), and was then given a more 'fitting' prescription, and it seems to be working.
I'm going to the health center tomorrow for a follow up appointment, and I should be getting a prescription to take everyday to prevent me from getting these lovely headaches ever again!
Can I get an amen??
Alrighty friends. Now that you're all caught up, I am going to go study me some music education, church history, 1 & 2 Samuel, math, some songs memorized, then it's off to bed for me!
Or possibly more procrastination.
And let's get real, there's definitely going to be SOME procrastination.
Sorry Mom.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Day Ten
Day Ten: A photo of you as a baby:
Sorry folks, this is as "young" as I can manage.
No. I did not come out this age or size. Haha..awkward...?
However I just don't have baby pictures of myself on my computer because...that would just be completely random. But I guess that's sort of the point of this, eh?
Anyway, this picture was from one of Andrea's epic birthday parties. I believe I am wearing one of my dad's old shirts that looks like a dress on me. It was actually one of my favorites because it had a cat on it.
Yes, I like cats. :)
I have homework, reading, and my chapel band callback songs calling my name...
Oh, and I have a recital this Saturday...I should REALLY memorize my last two songs...eeck!!
Sorry folks, this is as "young" as I can manage.
No. I did not come out this age or size. Haha..awkward...?
However I just don't have baby pictures of myself on my computer because...that would just be completely random. But I guess that's sort of the point of this, eh?
Anyway, this picture was from one of Andrea's epic birthday parties. I believe I am wearing one of my dad's old shirts that looks like a dress on me. It was actually one of my favorites because it had a cat on it.
Yes, I like cats. :)
I have homework, reading, and my chapel band callback songs calling my name...
Oh, and I have a recital this Saturday...I should REALLY memorize my last two songs...eeck!!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Day Nine
Day Nine: Photo of your family:
Well...this is awkward, but I don't have a picture of my family. Like...all of us together. At least, not that I know of.
But I DO have a picture with each member of my family...
So...
Daddy:
This picture was taken at Spirit West Coast :)
Mommy:
This was taken in San Diego
Jonathan:
Well this was taken at Jr. Camp! Hahaha, clearly we've just gotten a package or 3 letters and were subjected to sing a duet of "Teapot".
It was epic.
It was also "our" number. :)
Michelle:
Michelle is the one in the middle. I'm on the right, and her little sister Andrea is on the left. Michelle will be my sister-in-law this August, and I can't wait! :)
So this (in a nut shell) is my family!
And if I wasn't so tired I'd go into some more detail.
Also my roommate just yelled for me. LOL
Have a great rest of your Sunday, and an even greater week! :)
Well...this is awkward, but I don't have a picture of my family. Like...all of us together. At least, not that I know of.
But I DO have a picture with each member of my family...
So...
Daddy:
This picture was taken at Spirit West Coast :)
Mommy:
This was taken in San Diego
Jonathan:
Well this was taken at Jr. Camp! Hahaha, clearly we've just gotten a package or 3 letters and were subjected to sing a duet of "Teapot".
It was epic.
It was also "our" number. :)
Michelle:
Michelle is the one in the middle. I'm on the right, and her little sister Andrea is on the left. Michelle will be my sister-in-law this August, and I can't wait! :)
So this (in a nut shell) is my family!
And if I wasn't so tired I'd go into some more detail.
Also my roommate just yelled for me. LOL
Have a great rest of your Sunday, and an even greater week! :)
Randomness that Happens "late-ish" in the evening...
How cute is this kitchen?
And more importantly, how PERFECT is this kitchen for ME??
Just had to share.
:)
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Day Seven and Day Eight
Hey there Folks!
So it happened. I missed a day.
I could hear you all weeping, but do not worry! I'm here now!
:)
Day Seven: A Photo of someone you love:
There are a lot of people I love and who mean the world to me, but my mom is one of my best friends.
Yep. Be jealous folks, my mommy is one of my best friends. :)
I have a lot of other friends who have so many problems and issues with their moms, but my mom is always on my side, my number one supporter, and encourages me with every decisions I make. :)
Day Eight: A Photo of your favorite Band/Musician
*sigh*
I'm sorry, there are too many. I'm tired, and I have a toooon of homework to do, so for the sake of MY sanity, I'm just going to list off some artists who I've been listening to lately:
Adelle
Addison Road
Ella Fitzgerald
Audrey Assad
Lecrae
BarlowGirl
Civil Wars
Francesca Battistelli
Kari Jobe
Maybe I'll post pictures later.
The reason I'm so tired is because I worked the High School Choral Festival yesterday. God smiled down on me when he placed me working with several attractive young men. Heeheehee...
Oh, and I looked really cute. Like...boots, skinny jeans, pretty top, brown belt, brown leather jacket, and YES! I had my very own radio (walkie-talkie status!) that was hooked into my jacket, and all the cool high school girls told me I looked really cute.
Moral of the story: I looked cute.
I should also mention I hadn't eaten all day, worked from 12:15-9:00ish, I was on drugs and soda, and I'm pretty sure my heart might have stopped at some point, but praise Jesus it didn't!
Cause then I wouldn't have been able to finish this! :)
Anyway, I'm feeling much better, both mentally and physically. I think the medicine is beginning to work!!
Ok. I'm going to make myself some breakfast (yes, I'm eating breakfast at 11:50 in the morning. Don't judge me.) and then I have some serious homework to do.
Oh, and I'm singing in my friend's senior recital today. So I got me a busy day today.
Why am I not stopping to go start my day?
Because I don't want to do homework.
Look who's awesome at procrastination now!
Ok.
Seriously.
.....I cannot think of anything else.
So I guess I'll go.....
Mah. :(
So it happened. I missed a day.
I could hear you all weeping, but do not worry! I'm here now!
:)
Day Seven: A Photo of someone you love:
There are a lot of people I love and who mean the world to me, but my mom is one of my best friends.
Yep. Be jealous folks, my mommy is one of my best friends. :)
I have a lot of other friends who have so many problems and issues with their moms, but my mom is always on my side, my number one supporter, and encourages me with every decisions I make. :)
Day Eight: A Photo of your favorite Band/Musician
*sigh*
I'm sorry, there are too many. I'm tired, and I have a toooon of homework to do, so for the sake of MY sanity, I'm just going to list off some artists who I've been listening to lately:
Adelle
Addison Road
Ella Fitzgerald
Audrey Assad
Lecrae
BarlowGirl
Civil Wars
Francesca Battistelli
Kari Jobe
Maybe I'll post pictures later.
The reason I'm so tired is because I worked the High School Choral Festival yesterday. God smiled down on me when he placed me working with several attractive young men. Heeheehee...
Oh, and I looked really cute. Like...boots, skinny jeans, pretty top, brown belt, brown leather jacket, and YES! I had my very own radio (walkie-talkie status!) that was hooked into my jacket, and all the cool high school girls told me I looked really cute.
Moral of the story: I looked cute.
I should also mention I hadn't eaten all day, worked from 12:15-9:00ish, I was on drugs and soda, and I'm pretty sure my heart might have stopped at some point, but praise Jesus it didn't!
Cause then I wouldn't have been able to finish this! :)
Anyway, I'm feeling much better, both mentally and physically. I think the medicine is beginning to work!!
Ok. I'm going to make myself some breakfast (yes, I'm eating breakfast at 11:50 in the morning. Don't judge me.) and then I have some serious homework to do.
Oh, and I'm singing in my friend's senior recital today. So I got me a busy day today.
Why am I not stopping to go start my day?
Because I don't want to do homework.
Look who's awesome at procrastination now!
Ok.
Seriously.
.....I cannot think of anything else.
So I guess I'll go.....
Mah. :(
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